THE MIRACLE

Created by crwideen 9 years ago
Anne-Marie Anne-Marie had spent the last 20 years give or take living with me. We had grown to have such a close connection with each other. She truly became like part of our family. She was witty, humorous, enthusiastic and loving. SHe deeply loved her family although had a hard time expressing this. She would tell me of how much she loved her mom, sister and her dear son. We would have coffee each mooring at the kitchen table or outside on the deck listening to youtube music and talking. Great memories of this. We really had opportunity to discuss many issues and connect. She went through many, many difficulties and trials in her life. She had quite a significant mental illness that she struggled with. The last few years she faced horrific health problems that made each breath feel like she was drowning and also had kidney failure which drained her of all energy. There was so much stigma and judgements with her mental illness, but she keep on being positive and looking forward to what was going to be around the next corner. Through it all she always was concerned for how we were doing and faced it all with courage and dignity. THE MIRICLE….. The evening Anne-Marie passed away I had a deep feeling to call Garden Manor " where she had recently moved to due to medical illness" to talk with her. I did make that call and due to confidentiality they simply stated " You will have to call back in the morning to talk to the nurse" Well I continued with this strong urge to find out where she was and I called the hospital to find indeed she was admitted on 3 West the medical ward….Although I was tired and not feeling well and had just arrived from a trip that day I followed the urge to go to the hospital. I THANK GOD…….that I followed this strong feeling as I found her so very ill and delirious, I held her hand and rubbed her back. I opened up the locket that I had given her with the picture of her mom in it, I told her "look at this your mom is close to your heart always. She was also wearing her engagement ring from her desist boy friend….I said look at that David is close to you too. I was talking to Michi and passed on the love from Michi to Anne Marie and she was able to express her love for Michi to me as well. We held each other closely. At this point I was just told that they thought she had the flew. Anne Marie stated that there was something wrong and I wondered if tonight would be the night she left this world…..and I found out in the mooring that indeed she did leave this world. Anne Marie had a very strong faith in the Lord and prayed daily, loved the lord deeply and knew that one day she would see her mom, David and all of her loved ones again. I truly feel that this was a message from the Lord as the odds of me calling her and finding her when I was sick and tired when I did not feel up to going. this has changed my outlook on life……I feel that this life is a gift and to realize that we can loose it or anyone we love so quickly. I am left with a blessing to realize how I want to treat everyone as though it may be the last time I see them and to trust the Lord. He sent me there to say goodbye to my dear friend/family to comfort her and her loved ones in knowing there was a goodbye in which she knew how much she was loved and she passed along the message of love to me and her family… Anne-Marie you will always be in my heart, you inspired me and helped me with my faith in the Lord Jesus. Thank you for all of the support and witnessing you provided when I felt so alone in this world these last few years you were always there for me….and me for you built such a strong bond of love…………………………………………………….